The Great Mysterious Uknown

Pause to Wonder – Albert Einstein

“The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead, his eyes are closed. “

Once again, I am drawing on the Inward/Outward project of DC’s Church of the Savior for that is where I received today’s missive. And as I sit here swallowed by my favorite puffy chair surrounded by the yellow tones of spring in Florida, I remind myself that the unknown and mysterious is great.Not to be feared but rather revered because if everything were known that would leave no room for inspiration, for hope, for possibility.

I had my 6 interviews in Chicago on Monday with the company in Denver I’ve been writing about… My plane touched down early on Monday night and I was relieved that Chicago had been blessed with spring-like weather for the two day span of my visit. No need to deal with ridiculous layers and a winter suit. My suit was light gray and carefully chosen, I worried nonstop about wrinkling it. I’d only just purchased it at the Limited’s fortuitous 50 percent off sale….I didn’t know what to expect, but I knew it was time to do this thing, if only to free my thoughts.

As I looked at the familiar freeway signs, one showing the way to Milwaukee, WI, to home, I felt that this must indeed be right. Everything went smoothly and with each interview I met a new character. They seemed done throwing curve balls at me and rather seemed to want to get to know me.

My toughest interview came first – the guy who seems unconvinced that anyone would be willing to take a pay-cut simply to work in a field related to education – because they find meaning in education. Especially since my work (which I can’t talk about) is apparently so interesting. Really all that is interesting is that I can’t talk about it.

But at the end of 6 interviews I’m still in the dark. I have a “follow-up” conversation tomorrow. I know that my job here in Tampa is at risk, I knew that when I took it, figuring it would be impetus to find the right path rather to settle into a comfortable and miserable living.I could see myself in Denver, among the awe inspiring mountains.

And I realize at this point that all that is required is faith in the journey. The realization that I have done the best I can and that it is out of my hands.To let go and allow my self to be surprised – to let God, the universe, or whatever else do their part and to have faith.Not easy for a list-maker like me….